Wednesday, February 1, 2012

just ugh

I obviously can't fight this weight battle alone. I need someone to push me to work out. I need motivation. I don't understand how can hate my body so much but still not do enough to change it.
I keep looking at thinspiration pictures on pinterest and I literally get emotionally upset. Like, look until I feel like crying and click off the page.
I want to have another baby, but I am so afraid of all the steps and all the obstacles. I haven't had a cycle since November when I quit bcp. My weight is at an all time high. I know that's the first thing they will tell me to do...lose weight. I just can't do it. I feel broken down. I feel like giving up. I just don't know where to start. Help me friends!