Monday, December 31, 2012

2012 in Review

Since I'm using this blog kinda as a journal, and kinda for my children to read someday, I thought it would be a good idea to review everything that happened in 2012.

January:
We purchased our very first home. It was a long and trying process, but we are so happy with the decision we made.  We feel very blessed to be given the opportunity to be home owners!  In this economy, we know how special that is.

February:
We found out we were expecting baby #2.  On Valentine's Day of all days!

March:
For some reason I'm drawing a blank on March.  I checked out my facebook pictures and there are pictures from a trip to Cherokee that we took. 

April:
Lexi had her very first sleep over with her cousins, Aubrie, Averie, and Gracie.
Our first Easter in our new house.
The first Easter where Lexi was really able to get involved in coloring and hunting for eggs.

May:
Lexi turned 3.  We celebrated with a "Princess and the Frog" themed birthday party.
Lexi started recognizing her own name. 
We visited the Tulsa Zoo where she was able to see a giraffe named Lexi and read the sign.

June:
In light of the new baby coming, Lexi got a big girl bed, with princess sheets.
Lexi tasted her first ever snocone.

July:
Lexi burned her hand on a sparkler, thank goodness it barely left a mark.
We hosted a baby shower for my niece Mattie Marie, here at the house.

August:
Miss Mattie made her arrival.
I went on maternity leave at work.

September:
Rex Allen made his arrival.

October:
Rex's first Halloween.
Rex was a skeleton and Lexi was Cinderella.  She was really into Halloween this year.  She wanted to wear her costume to school every day.
We spent a night in the Children's Hospital with Rex. Thank goodness it turned out to be nothing serious and we were able to go home the next day.

November:
Thanksgiving in Cherokee.

December:
Rex's first Christmas.
Lexi was really into Christmas this year.  Everything was about Santa Clause and who was on the naughty or nice list.
She loved decorating the tree.  She loved having the house all lit up with lights. She is going to be really upset when we take all the lights down.  I might have to get her some special lights for her bedroom.
Christmas Eve was awesome, just hanging out here at home.  We were able to make cookies, and salt dough ornaments.  It was a really special Christmas.

I hope everyone had a blessed 2012.  While it seems like there was so much bad that happened this year, it's nice to look back and actually see all the good stuff.
Happy New Year friends!

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Thankful Thursday

This will be my first time doing a thankful Thursday post and linking up with Baby Gator's Den!  I'm going to try to keep up with it though.

Like most people, after last Friday's events, life in general took on a whole new meaning.  You truly realize how many things you have to be thankful for.

This week I'm thankful for:

*Dr's. We have been so sick for what seems like an eternity.  I am so thankful for our doctors, especially our pediatricians (yes each kid has a different one until the beginning of the year when Lexi is back on my insurance.)

*Church.  I'm ashamed to admit that we have only been to church a handful of times since Lexi was born almost 4 years ago.  We started going back recently, and it makes a huge difference in my week.

*My family.  All of them. 

*My babies.  I truly live my life for them.  I get out of bed every morning to go to work to provide for them.  They are my whole life.  I don't know what I would be if I wasn't a mom.

*My kids' teachers.  Technically they are still in daycare, but we call it school.  I have no doubt in my mind that those ladies would do what the teachers in CT did last week.  I took extra time to write them a thank you card this week.  I will tell them thank you more often and pick up small tokens of my appreciation for them.

If I don't blog again before then, I hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas!

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Tragedy in Sandy Hook

I don't know how to begin.  When the news first started pouring in via twitter and facebook on Friday, I didn't know what to think. I found myself unable to work, drawn in to the live feeds and news stories.  I think everyone has felt this story, but I think moms have it hardest.  When you become a mom your whole perspective changes.  Everything is different.  You view the world differently.  You see acts of evil and acts of love differently.  While I was pregnant with Lexi this started to hit me.  I remember telling my Uncle that I wasn't sure I wanted to bring a child into this world.  This evil place.  He looked at me and said words that I will never forget. "You don't know if your child is the one that is going to change the world."  With those words, everything changed again.  Yes, my child could change the world one day.  It's our job to change the world.  One person, one little act of good at a time.  Yes, I do want to bring children into this world.  To spread love.  To change things for the better.

When the news started reporting at least 18 children killed, then increasing it to 20, plus 6 adults I was in shock.  All I could see was Lexi Rosemay.  I have seen her be afraid.  How scared were those children?  What were their last moments like?

But then the stories started trickling in about what happened in the classrooms.  How the teachers reacted.  It put my mind at ease a little bit.  They kept their children calm.  They told them they were going to be ok.  They told them they loved them.

Maybe it's just me. Maybe it's because I'm a mom.  Maybe it's because my husband and sister are in the teaching profession.  But I saw teachers in a whole new way.  Those teachers didn't hesitate to lay their lives down for their children.  They gave their lives.  Wow! 

When I got home I hugged my babies.  When they went to bed I stared at them sleeping.  I laid my head on Lexi and prayed over her and cried.  I put my hand on Rex's chest and felt his breathing.  20 sets of parents didn't get to do that on Friday night.  They sent their children off to school, where they should have been safe, and they didn't get to greet them on Friday evening as they got off the bus.  I can't imagine that grief.  It's too much.  It makes my heart race just thinking about it.  The presents under the tree that will never be opened.  The gifts from Santa hidden in the closet that don't have a receiver now.  Instead of celebrating Christmas break, these parents are burying their babies.  That should never happen. 

So what do we do?  Do we make new laws?  Do we give teachers guns?  I don't know what's going to happen in the days, years, months ahead.  But I know what I will do.  I will hug my babies.  I will tell them I love them.  I will pray to God to protect them when I can't.  What else?  I will hug their teachers.  I will write them thank you notes and give them random special gifts.  Because they take care of my babies for 9 hours a day while my husband and I work.  They love them.  They kiss their boo boos.  And I have no doubt in my mind they would do the same thing those teachers did at Sandy Hook Elementary on Friday morning.  They would lay their lives down for my babies.  Because they aren't just my babies, they are their babies too.