The dark cloud is starting to overtake me. I'm trying to push it away but it doesn't feel like I'm making progress.
There isn't a good way to fix it right now. Sure, I could change meds. But the med I'm on right now is so hard to come off of that I seriously think I would have to do it in a hospital setting. And I just can't do that right now.
My work schedule is part of it. I've been working some weird hours. Like not going in until 2-3 in the afternoon. It's nice to have nothing to do all day. But all I end up doing is dreading going in.
I never see my husband. Between his late nights and mine we pretty much just sleep in the same bed.
My house is a wreck. Bad. Like I would not let anyone walk in the door right now. I'm struggling with making my kids clean up their own messes. They are accustomed to me doing it. But I don't have time to do it. And frankly I don't want to do it. Just put your trash in the trash and dirty clothes in the hamper.
Migraines are becoming a daily occurance again. Not much I can do about that.
I feel uncomfortable in my own skin. Laying in bed right now and I can't decide if I want to cry or run away.
I need help but I don't know how to get it