That's all. It consumes my whole life. Everything I do is based around how much pain I'm in. Is it a 5 today? Is it an 8 at this moment? Can I function enough to work and drive myself home? Can I take care of my kids?
I went to the headache dr last week. His newest suggestion is that I stop taking all "rescue medications." Ex. tylenol, excedrin, fioricet, maxalt....
At this point they don't work, and they could be making it worse.
The month of June I had 2 days that I didn't have a headache. 2 days.
I'm currently waiting to see if my insurance will approve Botox injections. Technically it's a cosmetic procedure so you have to get pre-authorization to do it. Otherwise it's WAY expensive. It can take up to 30 days for the insurance to say yes or no. So right now, we wait.
I can't remember the last day I wasn't in pain.
Why do I even blog about it? Why do I even post on my facebook about it? It's pointless. People have 2 opinions: All I do is complain about my pain, or that I'm faking. No one can have that many headaches.
I don't know what I have to do to prove it. I know that I shouldn't have to prove it. After 8 years I must be putting on a pretty darn good show.
I've been called lazy.
I've been called a faker.
I've been told that I should be able to function with a migraine.
Right now...I'm on the verge of losing my job because averaging 36 hours a week isn't enough. I need to be there 40+.
I don't know what to do.