Letters to Lexi

Lexi Rosemay,

You're about to turn 10 and I'm just not ready for it.  You are the most amazing little girl I've ever met. 

Let me tell you about how you're the strongest girl I know.  (Because one day I hope you look back on these blog posts and find things you don't remember.) You got your ears pierced about a month ago.  You had them pierced when you were a baby, but then you refused to leave earrings in so the holes closed up.  You knew it was going to kinda hurt, but you decided you wanted to do it anyways.  And you did it while I was out of town! But, I knew all you would need was your daddy there and you would be fine.  You were in charge of keeping them clean.  I opened the bottle of cleaner every night for you and you cleaned them.  So, after 3 weeks you asked if we could change the earrings.  I got everything ready and we sat down.  As soon as I touched your right ear, pus starting pouring out.  I was horrified.  You barely flinched.  I told you we couldn't change them yet. Because I knew there was no way I could get that earring out without hurting you.  I asked you if it had been hurting and you said that it had been hurting some, and down your neck some.  I was in shock!  There's no way that couldn't have been killing you!  All I could do was say sorry.  And then apologize over and over every day for the next week as we cleaned it.  Thankfully in a couple days it was so much better and we were able to change the earrings out.  I feel like I failed you.  Sometimes you're so independent that I forget you're still 9 years old.  I feel like I have a high pain tolerance, but you just blew me out of the water little girl. 

You're also the smartest girl I know.  I'm already preparing myself to listen to you give the valedictorian speech at your graduation.  I'm calling it now baby girl. 

And....you're the best big sister ever.  Yes, you and your brother fight.  Sometimes a lot.  But, you take care of him so much.  You are always there to remind him to get his coat on, and get his backpack ready in the morning.  Even if he doesn't want to hear it. 

I love you so much Lexi.  And I thank God every day for making me your mama.  Me and your Daddy waited so long to have you, and there isn't a second that goes by that we aren't thankful for you. 

Love you forever baby girl!