Tuesday, November 3, 2015

10 pm

This time of day just really sucks. Everyone is asleep. Just me and my brain. My brain that doesn't function correctly. And tells me ridiculous things. But they aren't so ridiculous at this time of day.
I'll never have a permanent job like everyone else my age.
I'll never lose this weight and be healthy.
I'll never have control over my depression.
People will never believe how real my pain and depression really is.
I'll never be good enough for my husband and kids.
I'm sure I'll be fine in the morning. But right now. I'm not fine. And it sucks.